Friday, July 23, 2010

Tears for Fears

Do you remember that music group? Their most recognizable hit, "Everybody Wants to Rule the World", belted over the loudspeaker as 121 seniors from the International School Bangkok threw their graduation caps in the air in 1989. Yes, I know I'm dating myself.

I woke up this morning with that phrase on my mind. Then I began to wonder, do I really want to rule the world? I immediately scoffed, of course not. This internal monologue continued, naturally with a cataloging of what I do want. As you can imagine, the list began rather trivially. Since it was 5:00 am, and I had no particular reason for being awake that early, number one was more sleep.

I want to sell more copies of my book. Lots more. Another self-serving notion.

Then I began to ponder the song again, and the meaning behind the words (at least for me). I think people want to leave their mark on this world. We long to know that we matter. Our greatest desire, truly, at the end of all things, is to be loved. And for some of us, that translates into, if I can accomplish something really spectacular then people will know me and love me and remember me when I die.

Then I was reminded (maybe that's why I was awake so was quiet enough to hear), that I am loved. It is truly amazing to me how often I need to be reminded of this fact. It is also somewhat a relief to know I'm not the only one. John Eldredge uses the analogy of a leaking bucket (rather that a cup to be filled). Our spirits can not stay satisfied from a single happy event, or even occasional encounters with God. I think he designed us that way.

So the next time you feel yourself longing for "something", may I suggest that you let yourself be reminded that you are loved?

Now it would be a lie if I told you I no longer have a desire to sell lots of copies of my book (although my wish for more sleep has abated for now). But I can say it is not a burden on my mind at this particular moment. And I am thankful for the reminder, once again, that it doesn't matter to God what great and wonderful things I do in this life. He loved me before I ever accomplished anything, and he will continue to do so forever! Isn't he truly wonderful?

1 comment:

  1. Good stuff, Kari!!! Such a great reminder.

    And..I remember that song!! And y'all throwing your graduation caps!!! Good times!!